Avoidance
There are many people in my life that I lose touch with. In this day in age people move more often and we insert ourselves in to new communities and new ways of life. I am no exception to this. I can be abysmal at staying in touch with people. I often neglect or perhaps you can say....avoid....people that I deeply care for.
It is an unexplainable reflex and something I can't control. Perhaps many of you can relate.
I wrote about this in April (link here: http://daverivelli.posterous.com/a-note-aboutwhy-we-lose-touch ).
The idea of that post was that there were certain people I just avoided and I couldn't explain why.
Here are some possible conclusions:
(a) A fear that they will be disappointed that I haven't contacted them in a long while
(b) I don't want to have a conversation about what I am currently doing
(c) I am just lazy
(d) I just like where the relationship left off
(e) Law school is just too much for anyone to maintain regular relationships
(f) A general fear of inconvenience or discomfort
While I would love to use (e) as an excuse and could point to (c), I suppose (f) would be my best guess. Anytime we make renewed contact with people (we once saw more often) - it takes a greater effort to reignite the friendship (than when we saw them everyday). This is inherently unnatural. Meaning we must extend ourseleves beyond our comfort level (if even for a moment) and in some ways meet the person again.
Inherently everyone (myself included) just don't really want to do this.
To put it in other terms.....It is the old adage: I don't call her because I know we will have a 45 minute phone conversation once we start talking, because there is so much to catch up on. So.....we never talk.Yet when you were friends did you keep track of time? Of course not. There are parts of human nature that can't be explained and certain things we must will ourselves to do in the moment.
Yet so often later on....or even minutes after starting the conversation.....we look back on how we felt and are baffled that we felt that way.
Out of sight - out of mind - has never been more true with this. Things are easier to avoid when we are distant from it. The longer the time or the geographical distance...the greater the struggle to maintain it.


